A Lollipop Unwrapped.

8 Sep

(Originally written for and published on the blog One Chinese Muslimah)

‘And Say to the believing women to lower their gaze (from looking at forbidden things), and protect their private parts (from illegal sexual acts) and not to show off their adornment except only that which is apparent (like both eyes for necessity to see the way, or outer palms of hands or one eye or dress like veil, gloves, head-cover, apron), and to draw their veils all over Juyubihinna (i.e. their bodies, faces, necks and bossoms) and not to reveal their adornment except to their husbands, or their fathers, or their husband’s fathers, or their sons, or their husband’s sons, or their brothers or their brother’s sons, or their sister’s sons, or their (Muslim women) (i.e. sisters in Islam), or the (female) slaves whom their right hands possess, or old male servants who lack vigour, or small children who have no sense of feminine sex. And let them not stamp their feet so as to reveal what they hide of their adornment. And all of you beg Allah to forgive you all, O believers, that you may be successful’ (24:31)
My first hijab experience went something like this. After I became Muslim, I gave myself a time frame, I was planning on sporting the hijab when I was “ready” and I had planned for it to be a month after I became Muslim. But of course, Allah is the Best of Planners and He knows best. I actually started wearing the hijab a week and a half after I became Muslim!

The hijab was definitely something I had to get used to!! I was always used to leaving my hair up in a ponytail or in a hairband so when I had to cover my hair and head completely, I was a bit nervous. I actually was self conscious and worried what others would think! The hijab made me sweat and it felt very uncomfortable. It often made me frustrated when I couldn’t keep it on properly and my hair would keep showing! My first few attempts, I failed miserably, but as the weeks progressed I learnt how to put it on properly and finally, Alhamdulilah I have mastered it!

There were times I wanted to give up and just stay at home to avoid going out at all costs! But I remembered the number one reason why I was wearing the hijab. It was to represent my trust and my faith in Allah. It was to hide my beauty and to be a modest and humbled Muslimah. I was representing Islam as one of Allah’s servants and I should be thankful that he chose me to walk in His straight path!
After constant reminders and struggles with my nafs, I won. I love the hijab so much, I can’t picture myself without it. I feel honoured when I step out into the world with my hijab on as it represents true respect and love for Islam.

My hijab speaks for me and it says ” Because I am a Muslimah!” I would feel utterly naked if I didn’t wear it and when I see others who show their “goods” and flaunt them around carelessly, I thank Allah that I am now amongst billions who have chosen to wear the hijab with true pride and sincere dignity. I am not oppressed nor do I feel depressed when I wear my hijab. I look at women and their indecent exposures in the media, and think about a lollipop with no wrapper with dirty flies flying around. Would I rather be like that? Or would I rather be respected for being a woman covered properly with butterflies flying around me?

I respect myself so much more now and I feel that because I am in a place where the Muslim population is almost close to none, it is my means of dawah. The hijab is my secret strategy to let others know that the hijab isn’t just for “Arabs” or “Indians” but the hijab is for all women, every woman all over the world who believe that there is no God but one God and that Prophet Muhammad (pbuh) is the last messenger.

~ Khadijah

One Response to “A Lollipop Unwrapped.”

  1. Ummariam July 6, 2012 at 7:19 am #

    Jazakumullahkhairan sister, your story is very inspiring not only to myself but it will be an act of encouragement for many sisters who are still a little hesitant to make that first step. May Allah swt bless and guide us all on our path of upholding the sunnah. Ameen

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